[ In a better mindset, he'd be so grateful for Eupha's seeming never-ending patience, because the second-worst thing that could happen to him after losing the people he loves is being feared by them. But while it takes out the wind from the sails of his rage, it doesn't do anything for his heightening panic, which resounds as an intelligible cacophony of thought. That he'd never forgive himself for hurting Eupha, but also that he can't be sure that he won't.
[ I'm so sorry or maybe yippee but ME, LOWE, I'M SORRY BECAUSE EUPHA DOESN'T DESERVE THIS but he's just going to outright swing and shove her away the moment she touches his arm. Pretty hard, too, with just a singular and loud burst of NO. ]
What do you not understand about being told to stay away!?
[ yay yippee, she is shoved and stumbles back a few steps, barely catching herself as she nearly falls right over. but she straightens herself again. ]
[ Hesitation. An awful lot of guilt, the realisation of just laying hands on Eupha sinking in. I'm sorry; I am not a good person. His voice has a tremour in it, some of the rage wavering to replace itself with guilt, something small, something crushing. His head feels like it's going to BURST. ]
Do it another day. All I want is -- I can't help wanting to hurt someone. Leave me alone.
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I said to stay away!
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[ she doesn't waver, nor do her thoughts betray any fear. ]
But I am afraid of what your fear will do to you.
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Leave. Leave. GO. If Eupha doesn't, he will! ]
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[ she doesn't come closer, but she stays where she is. ]
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He just gets up and makes to leave, kind of fast too. ]
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she tries to move when he does, rushing forward and reaching out for his arm. ]
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What do you not understand about being told to stay away!?
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I want to understand. Because I care about you.
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Do it another day. All I want is -- I can't help wanting to hurt someone. Leave me alone.
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... ]
Will you promise? To talk to me another day.
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[ Maybe. God knows how tomorrow will go. But for now! ]