[ Wow he's unfortunately in the shadowed groves by the Apple TreeTM. He actively does not want to meet anyone today so it's really gonna be a deep search type of thing.
Anyway things are not even remotely okay it's a 'chases you away' pc 2.0... help me. If she comes anywhere near the vicinity she'll notice it's just flickering into a horrible little nightmarescape of some kind of concrete jail with iron and bloody rust, along with just. So many intrusive thoughts of violence. ]
[ the good news is that this was actually pretty high on the list of places she was gonna check. the bad news is (gestures at everything else going on here)!!
it's not entirely unexpected. eupha steels her resolve, and walks ahead into the nightmarescape to look for him. ]
[ I just realised I had lost your other tag crumbles into dust ahhhh
He's just in there somewhere. Everything is an illusion, of course, so she can just walk right through it all, but regardless she finds him almost in a cell-like structure behind rusted bars.
He's half-curled up on the grass under, head in hands. ]
[ The voice semes to pull him out of it enough to realise she's there at any rate. Bare minimum, I know. But the loud No— comes through almost like thunder. ]
[ In a better mindset, he'd be so grateful for Eupha's seeming never-ending patience, because the second-worst thing that could happen to him after losing the people he loves is being feared by them. But while it takes out the wind from the sails of his rage, it doesn't do anything for his heightening panic, which resounds as an intelligible cacophony of thought. That he'd never forgive himself for hurting Eupha, but also that he can't be sure that he won't.
[ I'm so sorry or maybe yippee but ME, LOWE, I'M SORRY BECAUSE EUPHA DOESN'T DESERVE THIS but he's just going to outright swing and shove her away the moment she touches his arm. Pretty hard, too, with just a singular and loud burst of NO. ]
What do you not understand about being told to stay away!?
[ yay yippee, she is shoved and stumbles back a few steps, barely catching herself as she nearly falls right over. but she straightens herself again. ]
[ Hesitation. An awful lot of guilt, the realisation of just laying hands on Eupha sinking in. I'm sorry; I am not a good person. His voice has a tremour in it, some of the rage wavering to replace itself with guilt, something small, something crushing. His head feels like it's going to BURST. ]
Do it another day. All I want is -- I can't help wanting to hurt someone. Leave me alone.
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Anyway things are not even remotely okay it's a 'chases you away' pc 2.0... help me. If she comes anywhere near the vicinity she'll notice it's just flickering into a horrible little nightmarescape of some kind of concrete jail with iron and bloody rust, along with just. So many intrusive thoughts of violence. ]
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it's not entirely unexpected. eupha steels her resolve, and walks ahead into the nightmarescape to look for him. ]
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He's just in there somewhere. Everything is an illusion, of course, so she can just walk right through it all, but regardless she finds him almost in a cell-like structure behind rusted bars.
He's half-curled up on the grass under, head in hands. ]
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[ she'll approach, standing just outside the bars (even though they aren't actually keeping her out). ]
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Back off.
[ His voice is hoarse and unwell. ]
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That is what I did last time, but you do not seem to be any better for it.
I do not wish to leave you to torment yourself further.
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[ And eventually he was, but there is incredibly little doubt that it was thanks to Uruha. And now he's not here anymore, so. ]
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[ she takes a step, walking through the bars to join him in this cell. ]
Please... I want to help you.
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I said to stay away!
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[ she doesn't waver, nor do her thoughts betray any fear. ]
But I am afraid of what your fear will do to you.
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Leave. Leave. GO. If Eupha doesn't, he will! ]
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[ she doesn't come closer, but she stays where she is. ]
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He just gets up and makes to leave, kind of fast too. ]
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she tries to move when he does, rushing forward and reaching out for his arm. ]
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What do you not understand about being told to stay away!?
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I want to understand. Because I care about you.
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Do it another day. All I want is -- I can't help wanting to hurt someone. Leave me alone.
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... ]
Will you promise? To talk to me another day.
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[ Maybe. God knows how tomorrow will go. But for now! ]